Pregnancy Dilemmas 101

I have realized that through pregnancy, you come across quite a few dilemmas. There's the times where nothing in your house is edible or maybe you just have to pee and you're starving all at the same time so you have to make the life changing decision of what you're going to do first. Will you quiet those ever growing growls that are coming from a lonely, forgotten, mistreated stomach? Or will you relieve yourself, which will only lead to even more growls then before? But then you may thing about the further ramifications of either one. If you eat first, you will more than likely pee your pants. Especially considering the fact that you have a living creature inside of you that seems to take joy in kicking your bladder until you lose all control of bodily functions. But. If you decide to pee first...and you have morning sickness...good luck! If you pee and empty your bladder, you will throw up...not a pretty sight I might add...so what you decide is really a life changer. Decide wisely.

Deceit

What happens when
It's coming to an end?
When everything that matters
Turns out to be pretend
Everything you lived for
Everything you believed
Turned out to be a lie
You found out you were deceived

Goodbye...

I cried over him tonight. Something I promised myself I would never do again. I started thinking about his embrace. The feeling of him laying next to me. The way he used to hold me tight against him like he never wanted me to go. Like he thought maybe if he let go he would lose me to something greater than ourselves. I started thinking about his breath running down my neck and along my spine. The chills and the sense of belonging it gave me all at the same time. I started hearing his heart beat against mine. The way they became one. His fingers running through my hair and down my side. Slowly putting me to sleep in his arms with every stroke. The security I felt whenever I was next to him. The way the world always seemed to stop. Just to give us an extra few seconds together before we had to let go. Those few tears were all the emotions that I have kept held up inside of me. All the hurt. The guilt. The shame. All the love that I gave him that never seemed to be enough. I know in my heart that I will always love this man. I know he will always hold a special place inside of me. I'll miss the embraces. The kisses. The times he wiped the tears from my eyes. The times he gave me a place to stay and arms to run to when I had nowhere else to go and no other shoulder to lean on. The memories we shared, I can only hope and pray they will not be forgotten. But it has come to the end and here we must say goodbye. We must go our separate ways. Find our own paths. Hopefully someday we will see each other again. Maybe we'll be able to tell each other "I love you" one last time. But if that is to never happen, know that I love you. Always and forever. Goodbye...

Dreaming Again One Day I Shall Be

The thoughts running through my head
Like uncovered dreams won't wake me
This dream I'm living
Soon comes to an end
When that glance I once knew so well
Leaves me behind
And says farewell

That last glance
I'll cherish forever
And the hopes of tomorrow
I'll seek for today
That one day life will bring us together
And the dreams I once had
Might live for one more day

The times we shared
The moments we cried
May one day be remembered
May one day be cherished
For the waiting for tomorrow
May come to pass
And dreaming again one day
I shall be